drifting away into nothingness
into the total self-destruction
not caring about the reality anymore
letting the oblivion swallow me
until nothing remains but only my name carved on a cold stone
drowning deeply into the abyss of death
where I will not be anything anymore
not even memories will be left
just some rhyme in the realm of dreams and decay
fearless desires could never be lit up like inextinguishable flames
but only frozen feelings were ruling the realm of my dreams
the garden of my lust and passions became a desert
where weeds of indifference grew like majestic trees
trees of obliviousness and shallowness
all my devotion and cherished treasures of love were destroyed by the ominous fire of betrayal
leaving me a crashed flower with no vital signs
just a dead flower on the cruel soil made of artificial adoration
It’s just like a broken doll without impulse and lymph
left alone to starve the love she really needed
ready to be devoured by the void like she never existed
drifting away into the valley of death and obliteration
glad to have disappeared forever
with regrets and remorses cling to me like Ivy
a cruel wind spoils my heart, breaking it into pieces
leaving me senseless, like buried alive in a trap of disloyalty
surrendering to my defeat, I let death ruin me
becoming fragments of stars
fading away from the world of hypocrisy and diseases
my screams were just too silent to be heard
my heartbeats stopped permanently
nothing anymore was the same
in a garden of decay and cruelty
Esther Elizabeth Racah
