Leaving Myself Behind

Leaving myself behind
Through the pains and fears
Anguish was my ruler
And I didn’t demand anything
Hurt was my soul made of pins and blood

The roars of the demons claiming me echoed in my head
The castle of doom was my pristine dwelling
It was made of bones and ashes
In the gloominess of the midnight

I was fleeing from death to become decadence
Leaving everything behind
My past had crumbled to sand and memories
Remembrances that followed me wherever I was going

Disgraceful was my existence and only thorns stroked me
Black roses were swallowing me like a prey
Gloaming shadows surrounded me
Beneath the indifferent gaze of the silvery moon

I could only hear laments as manifestations of the night
A mist of sorrow shrouded me like a gloomy cloak
The cold air was full of decadence
My heart slowed down at the sound of the drums of mourning

I wandered beneath the barren heavens
I had become a ghost clothed in remnants of despair
I strived to seek refuge and rescue
But all I could ever feel was the numbness of endless wandering

The world around me blurred into shadows
My realm was a graveyard of forsaken dreams
Where even the stars had eclipsed for eternity
And the winds sang elegies to my fall

In this endless procession of sadness
I was no longer a creature of the light because my heart was deceased
But I was only a phantom dissolving into a mist
Forever swallowed by the sorrowful darkness

Leaving myself behind
I left a trail of thorns and blood
My heart was torn apart
I was just a shadow of the underworld

My face was carved with tears and scars
And the paleness of death erased it all
As if all my agony had faded like dust
In the end, I vanished into the oblivion of forsaken sorrows.
Elisabetta