Lost in my thoughts like a leaf is carried away by the wind
In my garden of forbidden fruits and poisonous flowers
Noticing all the colours and scents in their variety
As I approach them, they reveal their secrets to me
Memories stroke me like soft petals
While I dream about the infinity of the universe
As I explore the city streets among light and darkness
Contemplating the sublimity of the stars
In my loneliness, my only companion is my shadow, following me everywhere I go
And I slowly realised that all my existence had been an illusion
A delusional dream that enclosed me in a crystal cage
And enslaved by my obsessions, I strive to survive
I always find myself thinking about him, even though it has been a while since I last saw him
His smile and voice made me melt like a snowflake under the sun of his beautiful soul
Crying because I miss him, although I don’t know him
Being so far yet so close, I surrender to my senses, bedazzled by love and frightened by the unknown
I feel like a red flame bird soaring high in the sky
Reaching for the stars in a firmament of diamonds and corals
Only to fall down into the dim chasm of my anguish
Where all my teardrops had created a blustery ocean
My name is carved in every star as soon as I touch them
And lost in my thoughts, I wish that my desires may be realised
Delusional and silly, I’ve always been waiting for blessings and happiness
Although all that I could see was an empty desert of sad desolation
Remaining awake and dazzled, I try to realise that all my existence didn’t make any sense
My unique hope relies on my dreams and illusions
Therefore, I feel aghast by my disdainful fears and insecurities
While I get lost in my dangerous thoughts.
Elisabetta