The Digital Manuscript of Poetry and Literature by Elisabetta

  • Losing Myself

    Losing Myself

    Losing Myself

    Losing myself in the labyrinth of thoughts and emotions
    I disown the concept of time
    I ignore the days and the nights
    And I enter a secret world
    An unrevealed and undisclosed chimaera
    A dwelling that is perceptible only to the soul
    Where everything is ethereal and pure
    There are no signs of corruption nor consumption
    However, nothing is steady
    Somehow this peaceful alcove loses its quiescence
    And a turmoil intrudes abruptly
    Therein is no perfection and no idleness
    The calmness is gone as soon as a new passion is born
    An inert hideout becomes an ocean storm
    It is not anymore a haven
    As soon as pains and fears increase rapidly
    I get lost in the middle of a violent blast
    I feel helpless and frail
    Like a small petal floating in the wind
    I’m defeated defencelessly.
    Esther Racah

  • Love

    Love

    Love

    Love is just selfish contentment. Love is a spiritual status of attachment to someone who makes us feel good and validated. We need to feel surrounded by attention and achieve illusory proof to be an essential part of someone’s life. Being a part of another existence makes us feel complete, we are delighted and in a safe space. We struggle to get attention and to pursue even a small area of time in someone’s life. We adore the illusion to be part of another’s someone, but in the end, we don’t take care of what is our essence—ourselves as whole entities without seeking outside our individuality. Indeed, we are complete realities believing to be half-ourselves, disconnecting from our true self. We need affection. We desire attention. We crave space and time from another’s life. We look madly for emotions which are already in ourselves. We seek togetherness to overwhelm our lack of self-knowledge and self-love. Asking for attention and care, we find reassurance and create emotional dependence.

    Nevertheless, it is a foolish illusion. We do choose to live in this big illusion, and hence we convince ourselves that we need someone’s love and care. In this way, we feel in a safe place like under the protection of soft and warm blankets. Love would be the safe place which rescues us from ourselves, avoiding to feel the void when we are left alone with ourselves. Thus we avoid looking at our reflection in the mirror of the truth. The truth scares us disclosing our real selves and natures. We do love the illusions which wrap our souls with a sparkling coat. But what does it remain once all the sparkles vanish? A spoil portrait of ourselves and hence we feel discontent, and we feel delusion and betrayal. Love is the support we believe to need to achieve happiness. Love is a golden cage which makes us feel valuable, powerful, vulnerable, dependent, fragile, proud and also deserted once we are left alone. 
    Esther Racah

  • Smashed Roses

    Smashed Roses

    Smashed Roses

    Smashed roses lay underneath an iced floor
    Once they were beautiful and exquisite flowers
    Now they are crushed in a chaotic design of petals
    Everything is out of order
    And their beauty is pure dizziness
    Being guilty to be too much gorgeous and alluring
    All that remains of them is their exquisite scent
    Their beauty went lost
    They have been smashed and destroyed
    Everything is a blast of chaos
    Beautiful roses are now only a relic
    A splendid artwork that is only a memory
    A remembrance of a lost innocence
    A memorial of a lost splendour
    It remains only a bunch of memories
    Memories that keep me alive
    Beauty and sublimity are just delusions
    Illusions which we need to escape from a corrupted reality
    The sublime is an ideal status of mind
    And we can choose to live in an illusional dream
    Surrounding ourselves with beauty and fantasies
    Because we need to believe in delusions
    And our souls survive floating in a sea of hallucinations.
    Esther Racah 

  • Life

    Life

    Life

    Life is that odd occurrence happening while we are dreaming
    While we are in an oblivious dimension
    Where we are boundless
    And no worries can trap our inner emotions and desires
    I do love to live in my dreams
    I am, and I always will be a reckless daydreamer
    When I’m in my imaginary world
    Which is made of beauty, flowers and brightness
    Concerns, dilemmas and deceptions don’t matter anymore
    I ceased to live an everyday and conventional existence
    Where falsity and hypocrisy coat everything
    Like a thick mist that is plummeting down
    Hence I chose disconnection
    A detachment from a reality I don’t belong to
    Indifference is a way to prevent dismay
    Life is a painful gift that we need to defend
    Once we are born, life is the only treasure we possess
    Nevertheless, sometimes we lack the desire to exist
    And we dare to consider it as a burden
    Everything smashes in fragments
    Fragments are the remnants of a repulsive and beloved life.
    Esther Racah

  • The 84 Charing Cross Road Book

    The 84 Charing Cross Road Book

    84, Charing Cross Road is the first book on my second list, and it is an epistolary 1970 book by Helene Hanff. It is about her twenty-year correspondence with the English bookseller Frank Doel. 

    The Beginning of a Long Correspondence

    84, Charing Cross Road is an epistolary short book, which is not only about books and literature. It starts on the 5th of October 1949, when Helene writes her first letter to the Marks & Co. antiquarian library in London. She discovers this library because of an advertisement about “antiquarian booksellers”. In her first letter, Miss Hanff describes herself as a “poor writer with an antiquarian taste in books”. Indeed, her tastes did not encounter any match in New York libraries, where the rare editions were expensive, and she found “grimy” the editions at Barnes & Noble. Helene prefers clean secondhand copies of the books she specifies in her letters. Hence, it starts a correspondence between Helene and some employees of the bookshop. In the beginning, the tone of the letters is formal, but things change with the time.

    Informal Letters

    After some time, Helene starts to write about herself and her life. She describes herself as a Jew with a Catholic sister-in-law, a Methodist sister-in-law, different Presbyterian cousins and a Christian Science healer aunt. Helene starts sending to the bookshop other gifts, which consist mainly of food. On December 20, 1949, Frank Doel starts a long-distance epistolary conversation with Helene. Miss Hanff portrays herself as a script-reader and writer working in her small and cold ground-floor apartment in New York. Although she lives in moth-eaten sweaters and wool slacks, she spends her savings in antique books, and she is very fond of British literature. 

    This is how I imagine to be the 84 Charing Cross Road Bookshop in London

    The correspondence continues

    In one letter Cecily, one of the bookshop employees, writes the Yorkshire Pudding recipe for Helene, who immensely appreciates it. In another letter, Helene complains about how America helps Japan and Germany financially, letting England starve. Helene adds to her wishlist also vocal scores such as the Bach’s St. Matthew Passion and Handel’s Messiah ( I personally love Bach! ). She keeps sending food parcels to the bookshop because of the food shortage in Britain after the Second World War. The bookshop sends gifts to Helene as well, such as a hand-embroidered Irish linen tablecloth. Another time Frank Doel invites Helene to his and his wife house in her future trip to England. Miss Hanff keeps writing scripts for the television, and her screenplays have artistic backgrounds as she describes in one of her letters. Although Helene doesn’t like fictional novels, she is fond of Jane Austen and her Pride & Prejudice book.  

    The last part of the book

    Helene keeps postponing her trip to Britain due to her precarious financial status. After some time, she gets a new job as a writer of American History dramatisations, and after that, she starts writing a book about the story of his life. Helene expresses herself so informally with the expression “You and your Olde English books! You see how it is, Frankie, you’re the only soul alive who understands me”. The correspondences between Helene and Frank continues until his death, which happened on December 22, 1968. Despite Helene and Frank never met, they were close friends mostly due to their bibliophilia and some affinity. The bookshop Marks & Co. ceased every business on December 1970, and a commemorative round brass plaque was placed on the left of the bookshop entrance. 

    Just a few words

    This lovely book is about the passion for books, literature, music and culture in general. Unfortunately, when Helene visited England, she did not have any chance to see the bookshop, which had been an anchor in her life for twenty years. At that moment she realised the importance to write a book about this story. The book had immediate success, and it became a cult book, which Miss Hanff would define as “my little nothing book”. In 1971, Helene visited Charing Cross Road and the empty shop, besides visiting London and Southern England. She met Nora, Frank Doel’s widow, and the daughter Sheila. Helene never married preferring her own company and not needing a life partner. Since I’ve never been to the UK, I plan a trip in the future as well. Since the age of six, I started learning English, and I have a tremendous English literature passion.

  • My Second List Of Books

    My Second List Of Books

    My second list of books includes twelve novels that I sorted by title. These novels belong to American, British, and German literature.

      1. 84, Charing Cross Road by Helene Hanff                        84, Charing Cross Road is the first novel in my second list of books84, Charing Cross Road is a 1970 epistolary book and is the first in my second list of books. This novel is about books and English literature and about twenty years of correspondence between the writer Helene, who lived in New York, and her friend Frank Doel from London. Their shared love for books and literature connected them in a long time close friendship.
      2. 1984 by George Orwell   1984 is the second book in my second list of books1984 is a satirical, futuristic, dystopian novel about totalitarianism depriving individuality and freedom. It is the second novel in my second list of books. The year of publication is 1949, and it takes place in a province of the superstate Oceania in the year 1984. The main character is Winston Smith, who dreams about a revolution against the totalitarian Party. 

      3. The Aeronauts: Travels in the Air By James Glaisher                     The Aeronauts is the third novel in my second list of books

        The third novel in my second list of books is The Aeronauts book about extraordinary flights and discoveries. The main character is the scientist James Glaisher, who explored the skies like no one before and the book’s author. A meteorologist and photographer with a passion for hot balloons and sky exploration. A book of discoveries during incredible travels in the air.

      4. Animal Farm by George Orwell                                          Animal Farm is the fourth book in my second list of books

        The fourth book on my list is Animal Farm, which is an allegorical story. It is a dystopian novel by the English author George Orwell, who published it in 1945. The plot is about a group of farm animals, which organises a revolution against irresponsible human farmers. The animals dream about equality, freedom and happiness. 

      5. The Blue Castle by L.M. MontgomeryThe Blue Castle is the fifth novel in my second list of booksThe Blue Castle is the fifth novel in my second list of books, and it is a 1926 novel by the Canadian author Lucy Maud Montgomery. This romance takes place in Canada before the First World War, and the protagonist is Valancy Stirling. She is a single woman who lives unhappily with her distressful family. She escapes from reality, dreaming about a blue castle.
      6. Cranford by Elizabeth GaskellCranford is the sixth novel in my second list of books

        The sixth novel in my second list of books is Cranford, which is a well-known novel. Elizabeth Gaskell published it between 1851 and 1853. The background of this novel is a small English town in the mid-nineteenth century. The protagonists are the two spinster sisters Miss Matty and Miss Deborah, and it is a portrait of a small society of women.

      7. The Custom of the Country by Edith Wharton The Custom of the Country is the seventh book in my second list of booksThe seventh book on my list is The Custom of the Country, a 1913 novel and a literary masterwork by the American author Edith Wharton. It is the story of Undine Spragg, a beautiful and ambitious girl. She is a fortune seeker who uses her beauty and charm only to marry a rich man. 

      8. The Diary of a Nobody by George Grossmith                    The Diary of a Nobody is the eighth novel in my second list of books

        The Diary of a Nobody is an 1892 English comic novel, which describes Charles Pooter’s chronicles daily in a narrow-minded society. It is the eighth novel in my second list of books, and it is a daily diary, which collects the memories of his ordinary middle-class life. 

      9. Effie: The Passionate Lives of Effie Gray, John Ruskin and John Everett Millais by Suzanne Fagence Cooper                                  The ninth book is Effie, which is about the beautiful and intelligent Effie Gray’s adventures a young Scottish socialite living in the Victorian era. She was an extraordinary woman who supported her husband’s career, the Pre-Raphaelite painter John Everett Millais.
      10. The Enchanted April by Elizabeth von Arnim              The Enchanted April is the tenth book in my second list of booksThe Enchanted April is the tenth book in my second list of books. It is a 1922 novel about four women living in England and going to Portofino to spend a holiday in an Italian castle. In Italy, they enjoy an unforgettable period in an enchanting and beautiful place.

      11. Far From the Madding Crowd by Thomas Hardy     

        The eleventh novel in my second list of books is Far from the Madding Crowd

        In my second list of books, the eleventh novel is Far from the Madding Crowd, an 1874 book, the fourth novel of Thomas Hardy and his first success. It takes place in rural Wessex in the 1860s, and the protagonist is Bathsheba Everdene, a farmer. She has an independent and fearless personality. This novel is full of turmoils, tragedies and heartbreak. 

      12. Faust by Johann Wolfgang von Goethe         
        Faust is the twelfth novel in my second list of books

        Faust is a classic German legend about the successful historian Johann Georg Faust, who finds discontent in his life. He makes a deal with the devil, exchanging his soul for indefinite knowledge and enjoyment. In the end, Faust will find destruction and redemption. It is the twelfth novel on my list. 

  • The Novel Of Orlando

    The Novel Of Orlando

    Orlando is the last novel in my first list of books. This novel dates back to 1928, and it is the most famous fantasy novel by Virginia Woolf. It is a revolutionary romance because of the unusual subject in that historical period. 

    The Novel of Orlando

    At the beginning of the novel, the main character is an English nobleman, Orlando, a page of Queen Elizabeth I and a poet. Orlando isolates themself in their countryside house after a heartbreak and the queen’s death. During this period, they dedicate their time writing and contemplating nature, life, and death. Subsequently, they become an ambassador in Constantinople before King Charles. In this mysterious period, Orlando becomes a woman, and they go back to England as Lady Orlando. They will live as a woman for the following two centuries. In this period, they marry, and they continue to be a writer. The tale ends up in the year 1928, which is the year of publication of this novel. 

    Time and Death

    Time and death appear to be an obsession for Orlando. Indeed, they enjoy passing years in solitude, writing poetry and reflecting about time and death starting from their isolation period. In this period, their obsession for death and decay is dominant, and time to time, they disconnect from reality and society. At the beginning of the novel, Orlando is a boy who loves nature and solitude. Their favourite place is under an oak tree and after a period of distress in the Elizabethan society, they fall into a mood of melancholy, thinking about death. They meditate about the thin line that separates happiness from melancholy. Orlando is obsessed with death since nothing is everlasting.

    Alnwick Castle, in Alnwick, Northumberland County. 1890 vintage

    Solitude and Poetry

    At the beginning of the second chapter, something mysterious happens to Orlando. After seven days of a deep sleep, they wake up with few memories of their past, and they meditate about the link between nature and death and life. Solitude was their choice, secluding themself in the big house of their fathers. Indeed, they pass their time into the crypt of their ancestors, where they think that even if people are merry and celebrate, one day they will die. Everything turns to dust, and nothing remains of all the illustrious persons. Death and decay are their constant thoughts. Life is not worth living anymore; hence Orlando sinks into a deep sadness. Since they were a child, they developed a passion for books and literature. Mostly now, the young Orlando spends several hours reading books and writing poetry. Before they were twenty-five years old, Orlando wrote forty-seven romantic plays, novels and poems, in English, French and Italian.

    Orlando and Nature

    In this novel, nature appears quite often as background and constant companion of Orlando. Although they are thirty years old, they learned that love, ambition, women and poets are delusory. Dogs and nature are the only trustable things. They always refer to their elkhound and a rose bush. So they seclude themself to avoid the external world, spending all their time reading and writing. Their favourite place is under an oak tree. Years passed, and although time passed, nothing happened. The time of the clock and the time in the mind seem to be different for them. Indeed, the time appeared long as they were thinking for a person of their age, but actions seemed to become short. Their timeline was very long, and it was surprisingly similar to a journey in a desert of vast eternity. The oak tree hideout was their place, where they contemplated about love, friendship and literature. 

    Constantinople Journey 

    Orlando wrote the long poem “The Oak Tree, A Poem”, spending nights and days writing during this indefinitely long isolation. Once they encountered the mysterious Archduchess Harriet Griselda of Finster-Aarhorn and Scandop-Boom from Roumania, a cousin of the queen visiting England. The attentions of Harriet became too obsessive, and her chasing caused the departure of Orlando from England. And so Orlando moves to Constantinople with the title of Ambassador Extraordinary at the service of King Charles. The fantastic novel of Orlando is a biographical novel, and Virginia Woolf plays the role of narrator. Virginia portrays the life of Orlando as a vague mystery. During their Constantinople journey, the Ambassador keeps themself very busy among wax, seals, ribbons, documents and letters. Orlando never loses their charm, beauty and romantic glamour. Although many women and men were adoring and admiring them, Orlando lived a solitary life without friends. 

    The Mysterious Transition

    During their journey in Constantinople, Orlando’s life takes a radical turn. After a long sleep, they wake up as a woman. Even though they become a woman, their nature and personality remained the same. They leave Constantinople, with a gipsy and a donkey; their adventures seem to be more intricate from now. The group of gipsies, who accepted them, noticed the vast cultural discrepancies. Their adoration of the beauty of nature was absurd for the gipsies. Orlando describes fiercely their big house with several rooms, a sign of their wealth and nobility. Virginia Woolf expresses an essential concept in the following lines “No passion is stronger in the breast of man than the desire to make others believe as he believes. Nothing so cuts at the root of his happiness and fills him with rage as the sense that another rate lows the prizes high. It is not love of truth but desire to prevail that sets quarter against quarter and makes parish desire parish’s downfall. Each seeks peace of mind and subserviency rather than the triumph of truth and exaltation of virtue”. Hence Lady Orlando decides to go back to England, where they embrace a new life as a noblewoman. 

    The New Life of Lady Orlando

    The second part of the Orlando novel is about their life as a woman. They go back to their house although now they are a lady in the Victorian period, dividing their time in writing, reading and mundane events. These social events were accessible only to the aristocracy and Orlando when felt a disappointment due to that society’s frivolity and emptiness. Occasionally in their house, they meet the ghosts of notable poets. With the time they lose some illusions to acquire others, and their joy consists in writing. In this period, Orlando meets Archduchess Harriet again, who reveals herself as a man, but they reject the Archduchy proposal for the second time. Finally, Orlando is delighted to be alone and enjoy their solitude. They realise the difference between the two sexes after they start wearing modest and feminine clothes. They believe that clothes become important ornaments, conditioning the mood of the person wearing them. 

    The Two Sides of Orlando

    Since their transition happened, Orlando coexisted different sides of their personality, which were sometimes masculine and sometimes feminine. They were tender-hearted mostly forward animals, and they detested the household activities. They were riding very well and driving several horses at the same time. Sometimes they were crying emotionally for a slight provocation, and they were not fond of mathematics and geography. So their personality was a blend of masculine and feminine impulses. In this novel, Virginia Woolf expresses her perspective about the period during Queen Anne’s reign, considering it splendid and exquisite, even though the society was superficial and worthless. Orlando frequently joined parties of aristocracy and nobility as a proper socialite. In the beginning, they felt great enjoyment, but afterwards, they became disgusted. Society can be pleasing and evil, but it owns a potent essence, which can be intoxicating and addictive. Suddenly the elite becomes tedious and repulsive. Hence Orlando avoids social encounters.

    Illusions and Truth

    Orlando believes that illusions are precious and necessary among all the things in life. Dreams are essential for the soul as much as the atmosphere is vital to the Earth. Lady Orlando lives in a delusional confusion. Sometimes it occurs that they wear their old nobleman clothes embracing their masculine nature from the past. Every night they enjoy wandering outdoor when there are not so many people around. Orlando likes to entertain themself with both the sexes. Their dual nature offers them all kind of experiences and amusements, having relationships with both the genders. Nonetheless, books, literature and poetry remain a big passion in their life. 

    The Nineteenth Century

    The last two chapters take place in the nineteenth century, the period contemporary with the author. A turbulent welter of cloud covers all the city of London. Darkness and confusion are spreading all over. The eighteenth-century ends up, and the nineteenth century begins. The weather changes, and it is rainier. There is a rise of muffins, coffee, artificial flowers, pianofortes and china ornaments. Women’s life target is marriage, and having as many children as possible. Orlando carries their manuscript “The Oak Tree” with them wherever they go. The date on the first page of the script was 1586, and they worked on it for three hundred years. After all these centuries, they realised that they remained the same person. Their personality was unaltered despite their transition. Their meditative side, their love for animals and nature remain immutable, although now there was Queen Victoria instead of Queen Elizabeth. 

    The Last Part of Orlando Novel

    Orlando kept their Elizabethan spirit during the nineteenth century, which is too much antipathetic to their personality. Now they are in complete solitude, and they feel very lonely. They define themself as single, mateless and alone. Although they met several men and women in their life, Orlando concludes that they don’t understand human nature deeply. They realised that it was better to lie in peace, surrounded by nature. And it is in this right moment that they meet their last husband. Indeed, Orlando was previously married to a Spanish dancer and had three sons. Even though they belong to the nobility and they still own their estate, they become poor. Finally, Orlando succeeds to publish their precious manuscript, and they become a famous writer. They win a prize for The Oak Tree poem, which they kept writing years after years with devotion and love. They are a beautiful person, kind to dogs, faithful to friends and very fond of poetry. After all those years of writing, the world seemed the same, considering that also after their death, the course of the events would be immutable. 

    Orlando: A Biography

    This novel is a dedication to Vita Sackville-West, who is represented by Orlando. It is a phantasmagoria of Vita’s life during three centuries. Nigel Nicolson, son of Vita, defined Orlando as “the longest and most charming love letter in literature“. And Vita was delighted with the book. This book is a fictional biography of Orlando, who embodies a non-binary person. Indeed, Their spirituality and intellect define Orlando, not their gender; in fact, what matters is their soul and mind. Solitude, poetry and literature remain the loyal companions of Orlando years after years and century after century. Moreover, the last day in the novel is the first day of 1928, the women’s suffrage in Britain.  

  • Emptiness

    Emptiness

    Emptiness

    I feel an emptiness that depletes my mind
    I cannot find any word to express my weakness
    Trying to express thoughts with words and linking words in sentences
    I’m in a cage of void and numbness
    No one can rescue me but myself
    To free my mind
    My thoughts would follow an order
    And my mind would have the strength to reveal itself
    Indifference and emptiness create a barrier around me
    Prejudices occlude minds and confines individuals
    Thus I find refuge in the literature and poetry
    Although they can deceive me
    They are pleasant dreams and delusions which allow me to endure
    Books are my several worlds I live in
    Several worlds where I can live different experiences
    And where I can meet several characters
    Discovering several places and epochs
    Poetry is my only personal expression where I can be myself
    Sometimes I lose myself in the emptiness of the reality
    Which I push away in the effort to survive
    My sensibility and my sensitivity suffer
    From a painful system that is made of stereotypes and prejudices
    Labels and classifications are the foundation of a hypocrite society
    A society that is ridiculous and absurd
    Sometimes more foolish than a fantasy book
    Hence I find refuge in the emptiness which I feel
    My secret haven in a realm that is made of horror and injustice
    An empire that is built on corruption and deceit
    Where a false smile is worth far more than a sincere sorrow
    Believing in illusion is the only way to survive
    My dungeon is my joyful refuge, where I can protect myself.
    Esther Racah

  • Torn To Pieces

    Torn To Pieces

    Torn To Pieces

    I’ve been torn to pieces
    Hidden in a silent alcove
    I lost my integrity
    The integrity which made me shine like a star
    Now that I’m not anymore a shining star
    I’m a fragment of myself
    A piece whose beauty is lost
    Once a tiny part of a beautiful artwork
    Which is sinking in a vast ocean of despair
    The despair of the uncertainty
    Powerless to escape from this misery
    I disappear into my fantasy
    Where I can refuge
    Like a beautiful and graceful butterfly
    Running from a cruel reality
    Which is like an obscure fortress
    Where a labyrinth traps everything
    A mysterious maze made of isolation and silence
    An imperceptible and invisible fortress
    A fortification that dwells inside the soul
    A snare made of fears and prejudices
    A  lure built on grief and prostration
    I’ve been torn to pieces
    Sad hallucinations find a new stance
    In the disruption of the unconsciousness
    The time ceases to exist
    Futile fears find their realm
    A kingdom of rags and scraps
    The pieces of my soul
    Like the fragments of a shattered shining mirror
    Whose several remnants shine in the moonlight.
    Esther Racah

  • Mrs Dalloway By Virginia Woolf

    Mrs Dalloway By Virginia Woolf

    Mrs Dalloway by Virginia Woolf is her fourth novel and the publication year is 1925. It is a parallel portrayal of this book’s two main characters: Clarissa Dalloway and Septimus Warren Smith. 

    Virginia Woolf and Mrs Dalloway

    Clarissa Dalloway is a rich woman in her fifties, and Septimus Warren Smith is a war veteran. While Septimus struggles to recover from his post-traumatic stress disorder, Clarissa is organising a party, recalling old memories. The happening of the party of Clarissa is simultaneous with the decline of Septimus’s mental conditions. Virginia Woolf expresses a subtle critic of the medical profession and society classism. There is a correlation between the personal experience of the author and the characters of this fictional book. Indeed, Woolf had bipolar disorder, and the suicide theme appears in the novel as anticipation of Virginia’s life end. And of course, the thematic of feminism is present with the contrast between rich and working women. Clarissa is a rich and gracious woman in her fifties who is married. And she recalls memories of herself falling in love with her girlfriend, Sally Seton. Sally is a girl of French descent and with a peculiar personality. Miss Seton is unconventional with a bit of egotism, and she doesn’t follow society’s rules. Clarissa and Sally have a platonic relationship even though both of them married later on. The personality of the writer is split into the characters of Clarissa and Septimus. Indeed, they embody two different aspects of Mrs Woolf’s personality. 

    The torments of Virginia 

    Unquestionably this book reflects some personal aspects of Virginia’s life with all the emotional implications. Virginia Woolf was in a long relationship with the writer Vita Sackville-West starting from 1922. Virginia found generous support in Vita during her struggles with depression. Mrs Woolf had nervous breakdowns during her life, and her depression was getting worse as she was ageing. Depression that culminated in her suicide when she was 59 years old. In the last letter to her husband Leonard, Virginia, was describing her mental issues. She started to hear voices, and she was feeling powerless in front of her terrible disease (as she describes it). And so she decided to stop spoiling her husband life, with this extreme and improper decision. She wrote to her husband that even though he tried to make her happy, her illness prevented her from enjoying her marital life with him. In the character of Septimus, Virginia describes her mental conditions, such as his hallucinations and hearing voices, in particular, the one of Evans, who died during the war. 

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    A hypocrite society 

    In this novel, the society is hypocrite, superficial and insensitive. It is clear when Septimus is under the “cares” of doctor Holmes, who underestimates the gravity of his mental conditions. On the contrary, the doctor puts under pressure the poor Mr Smith, with his daily intrusions in the patient’s house against Mrs Reza Smith’s will, the wife of Septimus. The disillusion in human nature, the feelings of loneliness, desertion, and condemnation from a society that only judge and isolate without helping, fuel the despair of Septimus Smith. He gives up since he cannot bear the judgement of people who, in his believes, wants him dead for social wellbeing. The specialist doctor Bradshaw, well known for mental breakdown cases, prescribes merely a period of rest in a nursing home. The anguish of Septimus was the same as Virginia’s one when she decided that she couldn’t bear living her life anymore. This novel is a subtle accusation against the medical circle described as arrogant, superficial and inhumane. The same superficiality allows Clarissa Dalloway to live in her fake world made of parties and unnamed friends. Indeed, she got to know the suicide of a young man while enjoying her party. In her opinion death were defiance and an attempt to communicate, not feeling any compassion for him. 

    Image by F. Muhammad from Pixabay

    Impressions

    The unusual features of Mrs Dalloway by Virginia Woolf are a reflection of the writer’s polyhedric personality. She was a feminist and a bisexual when bisexuality was unusual and considered a transgression. After the year 1970, her books were an inspiration for the group of feminists. The main themes of this fictional-and-not novel are life, death, love, and mental health. The contrast between the lightness and frivolity of the rich Clarissa and the dramatic struggle of Septimus is the metaphor of Virginia’s two sides. Unusual book but also very tragic, it is a masterwork of English literature. 

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