Random thoughts and memories hit me like thunders
And my fears grasp me with their claws
Feeling dizzy and unconscious
I cannot control my descent into doom and decay
More confused than ever
I try to understand the unreasonable reasons of the fate
Disappointments and merriments entwine in my heart
And I can only cry and scream at the sky
Where the stars and moon seem careless to my pains
My future destiny is obscure and uncertain
The unknown is my senseless fate
Rage and regret take me to their dungeon
Striving to forget my past is not my strength
Words flow in my mind as well as emotions flow inside my heart
Truth and lies are fused together, and reality becomes just an illusion
Illusions and dreams became my reality
Where I can have a safe haven all for me
Walking alone in the darkness among strangers
I feel like I am not really human but a creature belonging to another realm
A realm of fantasy and chimaeras where everything is beautiful and sublime
And no fear is necessary to survive
Having always felt like an outsider and a weird person all my lifelong
I always preferred to stay in silence and avoid too much noise
I never loved social gatherings with self-introductions and explanations
I’ve never felt understood or seen inside as I really am
Hiding in the dark shadows of the night has been my best choice
Hiding from everyone and everything
A nocturnal creature as I am
I love concealing myself
Fleeting into the realm of phantasmagoria
I am made of whispers and delusions
I am made of strength and weakness
I am made of love and hate
I am made of stardust and dust of decay
Random thoughts chase me everywhere I go
They hunt me fiercely and I cannot flee from them
Stars seem to fall over me
Hitting and piercing my heart.
Elisabetta