Swallowed by the emptiness, I strive to survive
And it seems that I’ve lost everything
And I feel that I’ve got lost in the obscure abyss of my anguish
And it’s only my fragility that guides me through the darkness
The cruel fate threw me into a life of decay and despair
An existence of invisibility and nonsense
Where I struggle to be understood and loved
And solitude rips my heart apart
Wandering alone in the night
I lose myself in an infinite myriad of thoughts
And I try to scream, but there is no way to be heard
While I lose my mind, falling into the abyss of madness
Foolish as I am
Every time, I believe in having found my way
I only find walls made of gelid stones
With no doors
So I stopped to trust my dreams
Since they are the most deceptive illusions
Traps made of enchanting flowers and magic spells
Traps that become my alcoves of salvation
And I remain an unconscious prisoner of such captivating visions
And I linger in silence without saying anything anymore
I forget the sound of my voice to only remember the sound of my sobs
When despair fractures me in millions of pieces
The sweet melody of decadence soothes my soul
I feel only love and anguish
My heart bleeds teardrops of passion
Lacerated as it is with a doomed destiny
Swallowed by the emptiness
I wander in the dark nights in the labyrinth of my nightmares
To lie there hopeless and betrayed
With a mind full of phoney delusions
Trying to lie to myself
I became convinced that there are clouds of happiness
Where I’m valued and remembered
A phantasmagoria of glowing glare and delight
Hence, a fraudulent bliss enchained me eternally
And an inextinguishable flame burns my bleeding heart
Inflaming my soul with its ethereal fire
A fire made of emptiness and indifference.
Elisabetta