Tag: Existentialism

  • Dead Dreams

    Dead Dreams

    Dead dreams haunted
    the hollow realm,
    where forgotten hopes withered
    beneath a sky
    of perpetual dusk.

    Once, this place had been
    crowded with life,
    with hope,
    with the vibrant pulse of chance.
    But those days were long gone,
    and now the only inhabitants
    were ghosts
    of forgotten desires.

    Regret lingered
    as sharp and suffocating as smoke,
    tainting everything
    it touched.

    Dead dreams lingered
    in the corners,
    hiding in the cracks of walls,
    in the dust that coated
    every room.

    The house was falling apart,
    its bones creaking
    under the strain of time.

    The windows were broken,
    the doors hanging loose
    on their hinges,
    and yet something remained—
    a presence, invisible,
    undeniable,
    watched from the shadows.

    Dead dreams whispered
    through the air,
    soft voices,
    insistent.

    They spoke
    of what could have been,
    of paths not taken,
    of futures lost.

    Their words wound
    through the halls,
    pulling deeper
    into the heart
    of decay.

    The walls seemed to close in,
    the rooms growing smaller,
    more suffocating.

    The air was thick with dust,
    with the weight
    of years.

    Dead dreams never indeed die;
    they fade,
    becoming one with shadows,
    with silence.

    The house would stand forever,
    a monument
    to what was lost,
    to what could never
    be reclaimed.

    In the end,
    it would claim all,
    just as it had claimed
    those who came before.

    There was no escape
    from the dead dreams.

    They lingered on
    long afterlife
    had left.
    Esther Elizabeth Racah

  • A Doomed Fate

    A Doomed Fate

    A doomed fate had long been sealed,
    A cruel truth that time revealed.
    Each step they took, each choice they made,
    Led them deeper into the shade.

    The stars above, so cold, so bright,
    Watched as they surrendered to the night.
    In every breath, in every sigh,
    They knew that soon they’d have to die.

    The night had deepened, thick with dread,
    A silent pull towards the dead.
    No whispers now, no gentle breeze,
    Only shadows through the trees.

    A doomed fate had followed close,
    Like shadows that refused to go.
    They wandered through the years in vain,
    Bound by chains, they could not break.

    They ran but found no place to hide,
    For doom followed them, ever at their side.
    The hour struck, the time was here,
    And with it came a wave of fear.

    They faced their fate with weary eyes,
    Knowing well, no one survives.
    A breath, a step, a final cry,
    As they laid down their will to die.

    A doomed fate had gripped their soul,
    No freedom left to make them whole.
    No matter how they fought or fled,
    The path led closer to the dead.

    The end was hasty; the night grew cold,
    The weight of fate was so tight, so bold.
    And when at last the dawn did break,
    It found a soul the night did take.

    And in the quiet, still and grey,
    A doomed fate carried them away.
    In the silence, fragments of despair
    Spoke of dreams that hung in the air.

    A doomed fate had been fulfilled,
    No fight remained, no heart to build.
    Their life, now lost, became a tale,
    Of shadows abyssal and winds that wail.

    Each moment stretched, a fragile thread,
    Binding them to the path of dread.
    And when the shadows whispered low,
    They understood what they must forego.

    For fate, once chosen, could not bend,
    A journey with no chance to mend.
    Esther Elizabeth Racah

  • The Sunless Path

    The Sunless Path

    The Sunless Path
    by Esther Elizabeth Racah

    The sunless path stretched endlessly before her, winding through a barren landscape where no light dared to linger. The sun had long since abandoned the world, leaving behind only a thick, oppressive darkness that seemed to swallow everything in its wake. She had walked for what felt like an eternity, her footsteps echoing hollowly against the earth. Still, no matter how far she went, the scenery never changed. There were no landmarks, no signs of life—only the path and the void that surrounded it.

    She could not remember when she had begun this journey along the sunless path, nor why. The memories of her past had faded into the shadows, blurred and distant as if they belonged to another world entirely. All that remained was the compulsion to keep moving forward, though she knew not where the path would lead. Each step felt heavier than the last, her legs trembling with the weight of an unseen burden. But to stop was unthinkable. The thought of standing still, of allowing the darkness to close in around her, filled her with a nameless dread.

    The scent of damp earth and decay surrounded her as though the world itself was disintegrating beneath her steps. She breathed it in with each ragged gasp, and it settled like a stone in her lungs. The silence was absolute, broken only by the sound of her contrived breathing and the soft, relentless thud of her treads. There were no birds, no insects, no wind to stir the dead leaves that littered the ground. It was as though the world had been drained of all life, leaving her the only living soul in a place where life no longer belonged.

    She had tried to turn back once, but the sunless path had twisted beneath her, warping into something unrecognisable. Her sense of direction had vanished, and the more she tried to retrace her steps, the further she seemed to stray from any semblance of escape. The path was a labyrinth with no end, a cruel trick played by forces she could not comprehend.

    Despair gnawed at the edges of her mind, whispering to her that there was no destination, no salvation waiting at the end of the journey. She was trapped in an endless cycle, a prisoner of the sunless path and the darkness that clung to it. And so, she continued to walk, forever lost in the sunless void.

  • The Abyss of Death

    The Abyss of Death

    The Abyss of Death
    by Esther Elizabeth Racah

    Then came the abyss of death, deep and wide,
    Where all must fall, where none could hide.
    The abyss of death, it called to stars,
    A silent plea, eternally.
    In that endless chasm, the longing was laid to sleep.
    The void embraced lost regret,
    And whispered, “Here, soon forget.”

    The cold was vast, the dark complete,
    And close behind, it hurt so endearing.
    For death, it took it all,
    Secret longings for lost hopes fell.
    The void consumed what life remained,
    And left behind the husks of pain.
    A hollow shell of what was,
    Now drifting in eternity.

    Finally, in that dark, quiet peace,
    A welcome end, a soft release.
    The chains of life that bound the soul,
    Were broken as control was lost.
    And though the blackness held tight,
    There was no fear; no light was seen.
    For, in the end, all must face,
    The emptiness of death’s embrace.

    The abyss keeps waiting for every heart,
    To draw in, to tear apart.
    What once was love, or hope, or fear,
    It was swallowed by the depths so near.
    No longer was there a yearning to see,
    For death has stolen that away.
    And in the abyss of death, wide and vast,
    Peace and rest were finally found.

    In that abyss, where none return,
    The fires of life no longer burn.
    All that was, now shadows thin,
    A spectre lost in an endless spin.
    Memories that once were clear,
    Are fading echoes, far from here.
    The void cradled every thought,
    Until there was no more to be sought.

    And so it sailed, no longer bound,
    By mortal coils or earthly sound.
    No time, no space, no fear, no care,
    Just an endless night, just empty air.
    What lay beyond was not known,
    For in this abysm, growth ceased.
    The abyss of death claimed the final breath,
    And there, the stillness of the end was found.

  • The Mirror Of Astral Woe

    The Mirror Of Astral Woe

    In the mirror of astral woe,
    Reflections of the soul did show.
    Not faces, but the shadows of thoughts,
    Woven into a cosmic knot.

    Each glance revealed a spectral tale,
    Of existence where truths turned frail.
    The mirror’s surface, a gateway to fears,
    Where the self was lost in forgotten years.

    Through its glass, the void stared,
    Revealing the soul’s deepest despair.
    Each reflection was a whisper of the infinite,
    A gaze into the abyss, where darkness split.

    The mirror reflected not what was seen,
    But the essence of what might have been.
    In its depths, the astral realm’s sorrow grew,
    A mirror to the soul’s darkest view.

    In the shadowy realms it held,
    Unspoken dreams and fears rebelled.
    Each fleeting vision, a ghostly parade,
    Of regrets and desires that never faded.

    Through the silken haze of the mirror’s sheen,
    Spectres of what was, what might have been,
    Danced in the void, where shadows spun,
    A spectral waltz, where past and future ran.

    The mirror’s surface shimmered with cosmic light,
    Reflecting the pain of eternal nights.
    In its glass, the truth lay bare,
    A portrait of despair woven with care.

    Lost souls wandered in its depths,
    Seeking solace in forgotten dreams.
    The mirror of astral woe, an oracle of desires unfulfilled,
    Showed the fractured longings, forever stilled.

    Each glance through its surface revealed,
    A truth too hostile to be concealed.
    The mirror, a portal to endless regret,
    Held the sighs of desires unmet.

    In its heart, the astral woe persisted,
    A reflection of the soul’s dreams, twisted.
    Each vision was a lamentation’s cry,
    A whisper of the self, destined to die.

    The mirror’s glance, both cold and cynical,
    Showed reflections both dark and whimsical.
    In its depths, where illusions lay,
    Reflected the tears that never dried.

    The mirror of astral woe, an endless scroll,
    Revealed the fragments of fractured dreams.
    In its depths, where every glimmer faded,
    The mirror revealed secrets never laid.
    Esther Elizabeth Racah

  • The Apotheosis Of My Illusions

    The Apotheosis Of My Illusions

    The Apotheosis Of My Illusions

    The apotheosis of my illusions
    When I pretend to conform to absurd customs
    Laying in an algid iron cage while I dream of freedom
    Trying to protect the essence of myself
    I cling to my excessive determination
    And once I release my scream of despair
    I become an ethereal creature
    Surrounded by glistening stars
    Gracefully I embrace my griefs
    Since I am made of my own dreams and anguishes
    Silently I compose my chant of foolishness
    Letting the oblivion fooling me
    Forgetting about who I am
    I become aware that eternity strokes my soul
    As I detach from the material finiteness
    All my senses melt like snowflakes
    As soon as I become part of the sublime
    Unwinding my dreams and avoiding all the chains
    I attempt to disentangle myself from my illusions.
    Esther Racah

  • The Stillness Of Life

    The Stillness Of Life

    The Stillness Of Life

    The stillness of life is like a steel sculpture
    Cold and immovable is the course of the events
    No emotion can perturb the fate
    As it is like a constant and perpetual motion
    Like the falling of silvery snowflakes
    Swirling under the influence of cold winds
    Hallucinations are daydreams of insoluble enigmas
    Life flows like a waterfall
    The silence is my haven
    The noise destroys my soul and mind
    Too many words are worthless, like dust falling down
    Despair doesn’t seek a solution
    Since it feeds on an irrational need for peace
    Vulnerability and frailty produce a burst in my mind
    And I try to tolerate the inevitable fate.
    Esther Racah

  • Life Fragments

    Life Fragments

    Life Fragments

    Life fragments are like a blue lake in the dusk
    Memories wander like scattered confetti in the twilight
    Loneliness and disillusion flourish with time
    Despair brings resignation to life
    And nightmares lavish their attention on me
    Fractures mutilated my old self
    Relics of myself are buried in the abyss
    Few memories of life fragments emerge from the oblivion
    The crooked dream of an ideality ceases soon
    Pains and sorrows drift away from me
    I run away from my desires
    I hold my breath, and I drown myself in the dumbness
    I become unconscious, pretending to be alive
    Lying to myself is the only way I can protect myself
    Becoming ethereal like a petal
    I float in my dreams
    Hoping I never wake up again
    I become an illusion.
    Esther Racah

  • Losing Myself

    Losing Myself

    Losing Myself

    Losing myself in the labyrinth of thoughts and emotions
    I disown the concept of time
    I ignore the days and the nights
    And I enter a secret world
    An unrevealed and undisclosed chimaera
    A dwelling that is perceptible only to the soul
    Where everything is ethereal and pure
    There are no signs of corruption nor consumption
    However, nothing is steady
    Somehow this peaceful alcove loses its quiescence
    And a turmoil intrudes abruptly
    Therein is no perfection and no idleness
    The calmness is gone as soon as a new passion is born
    An inert hideout becomes an ocean storm
    It is not anymore a haven
    As soon as pains and fears increase rapidly
    I get lost in the middle of a violent blast
    I feel helpless and frail
    Like a small petal floating in the wind
    I’m defeated defencelessly.
    Esther Racah

  • Love

    Love

    Love

    Love is just selfish contentment. Love is a spiritual status of attachment to someone who makes us feel good and validated. We need to feel surrounded by attention and achieve illusory proof to be an essential part of someone’s life. Being a part of another existence makes us feel complete, we are delighted and in a safe space. We struggle to get attention and to pursue even a small area of time in someone’s life. We adore the illusion to be part of another’s someone, but in the end, we don’t take care of what is our essence—ourselves as whole entities without seeking outside our individuality. Indeed, we are complete realities believing to be half-ourselves, disconnecting from our true self. We need affection. We desire attention. We crave space and time from another’s life. We look madly for emotions which are already in ourselves. We seek togetherness to overwhelm our lack of self-knowledge and self-love. Asking for attention and care, we find reassurance and create emotional dependence.

    Nevertheless, it is a foolish illusion. We do choose to live in this big illusion, and hence we convince ourselves that we need someone’s love and care. In this way, we feel in a safe place like under the protection of soft and warm blankets. Love would be the safe place which rescues us from ourselves, avoiding to feel the void when we are left alone with ourselves. Thus we avoid looking at our reflection in the mirror of the truth. The truth scares us disclosing our real selves and natures. We do love the illusions which wrap our souls with a sparkling coat. But what does it remain once all the sparkles vanish? A spoil portrait of ourselves and hence we feel discontent, and we feel delusion and betrayal. Love is the support we believe to need to achieve happiness. Love is a golden cage which makes us feel valuable, powerful, vulnerable, dependent, fragile, proud and also deserted once we are left alone. 
    Esther Racah

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