Tag: poetic lament

  • The Castle Of Betrayed Beauty

    The Castle Of Betrayed Beauty

    The castle of betrayed beauty
    a place of such magnificence—
    and just as much illusion.

    Many a feeling stormed my heart
    within that sacred place of deep devotion.
    I sought a refuge from my darker thoughts,
    yet found none.
    And so, I gave unbridled voice
    to all my heart and mind could then disclose.

    Drawn and captured by an eternal grace—
    a beauty untouched by time—
    The castle did not know that its fate would be so cruel
    as to obliterate even its memory.

    A heap of shards and debris would have remained in its place,
    Though its magnificence and wondrous splendour
    had no equal in the realm of mortal paper.

    Like a beautiful dream doomed to perish,
    So the castle of betrayed beauty vanished into nothingness,
    devoured by the abyss, by ordinariness, and by banality.

    Day by day, the wind, the storms, and the darkness had etched upon it—
    With such beauty—their marks,
    struggling fiercely to erase it into emptiness.
    And I realised that it was only a matter of time,
    and that nothing was permanent,
    no matter how strong the intention or desire for eternity.

    It had become my chimaera, my forbidden dream.
    I realised that all I had ever desired was lost—
    like dry flower petals scattered on the wind,
    leaving no trace, no funeral.
    Everything had slipped away
    as if fate itself had claimed the right
    to deny me a life filled with hope, solace, and joy.

    I had to suffer silently, watching my castle crumble fragment by fragment,
    becoming but a small part of it—
    as if I had lived within that place
    for all eternity,
    beyond the bounds of time.

    Alone and fragile, like a flower at the mercy of a storm,
    I found myself in the eternity of night and destruction.
    And my image shattered into a thousand pieces,
    just like my castle,
    before a mirror—
    before the mirror of… obliteration and oblivion.
    Lisa

  • So It Was A Night

    So It Was A Night

    So it was a night a lonely light where the sky was covered in clouds and all the shades of blue
    surrounded by silent statues whose stares seemed looking at me but in reality, they just didn’t see me. My loneliness was my only dwelling to create another version of myself. I was crying tears of blood, shame and regret. I felt confused, and at the same time, I had the certitude that I would never belong to the world of mortals. I accepted the fact that I never understood and accepted the worldly rules and conventions as I was a creature of my own.

    It was just night when I realised all the decadence of my existence like an ancient statue living off the ancient memories of its previous life without any hesitation and doubt. And so I approached the mirror of my soul where I couldn’t see any image reflected. It was like I was without the soul, and it was because my heart was too broken to be alive. Being always surrounded by beauty and decay I realised my demise. I strived to accept my ephemeral  dimension and abide by being invisible like a small stone in a huge ocean of confusion.

    I knew that every delight and joy did not belong to me, but only sorrow and distress. All I could do was dream. Dreaming and lamenting my miserable life was my delight.  I felt like in a cage, an invisible cage that just made me imperceptible to the sight of everyone. I was just a shadow, a spirit of the night of the terminal darkness where only other ghosts and spirits could perceive my presence. So I was condemned ultimately to a place between dream and death. I was not sure that I was alive. I could not understand since I got lost in the labyrinth of my fate.

    So it was a night, an eternal night. There was no more sunrise or sundown. The sun vanished in the emptiness, and the horizon was so dark that it seemed to be made as an abyss of gloominess. I wondered terminally without finding a refuge of hope and happiness. Tired as I was, and exhausted from my life, I had to face my condition as irreversible and doomed. So it was a night, my eternal night the end of my suffering, and the beginning of the perpetual void. Deprived of light and desire.
    Elisabetta

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