The infinite abyss of despair and death
In an endless tunnel of oblivion and loss
I’m always there like a bound creature without free will
I cannot escape from that dungeon deprived of freedom and choice
Whispering to the rain, I wait for my end to arrive
So much anxiety and fear crushed my heart into a thousand pieces
And now I’m just a shadow of myself
A creature invisible to the multitude who denies my existence
A noose around my neck tightens almost as if it wants to strangle and annihilate me
Hence I proceed without trembling towards my endless torment and agony
In an infinite loop of life and death
I continuously died to be reborn and I was ceaselessly reborn to die
Now and forever
Nowhere and everywhere
Ensnared by voices that pull me downward — forevermore
Seeking refuge among cloudy skies and storms
Seeking salvation among the voiceless creatures of nature
Wandering at the sound of raindrops and wind gusts
Under the weight of guilt and unforgiveness
Followed by the ghosts of those whom I once loved and cherished most
I ended up in the infinite abyss of despair and misery
While listening to the echo of my sighs and silent sobs
Everything emptied my heart into nothingness
Everything consumed me, reducing me to a voiceless pale phantom with a lifeless soul
And suddenly obstinate sounds resounded around me
They reminded me about the fragility of life and joy
Indeed, everything was destined to decay and perish
Even the silence in my heart
The dark emptiness stared at me
While I mourned endlessly my lost favourite affections
In an endless funeral with bitter tears and sadness
So I renounced every reflection of mine
Living in self-loathing and contempt of my heart
In the infinite abyss of despair and death
Elisabetta
