Emptiness
I feel an emptiness that depletes my mind
I cannot find any word to express my weakness
Trying to express thoughts with words and linking words in sentences
I’m in a cage of void and numbness
No one can rescue me but myself
To free my mind
My thoughts would follow an order
And my mind would have the strength to reveal itself
Indifference and emptiness create a barrier around me
Prejudices occlude minds and confines individuals
Thus I find refuge in the literature and poetry
Although they can deceive me
They are pleasant dreams and delusions which allow me to endure
Books are my several worlds I live in
Several worlds where I can live different experiences
And where I can meet several characters
Discovering several places and epochs
Poetry is my only personal expression where I can be myself
Sometimes I lose myself in the emptiness of the reality
Which I push away in the effort to survive
My sensibility and my sensitivity suffer
From a painful system that is made of stereotypes and prejudices
Labels and classifications are the foundation of a hypocrite society
A society that is ridiculous and absurd
Sometimes more foolish than a fantasy book
Hence I find refuge in the emptiness which I feel
My secret haven in a realm that is made of horror and injustice
An empire that is built on corruption and deceit
Where a false smile is worth far more than a sincere sorrow
Believing in illusion is the only way to survive
My dungeon is my joyful refuge, where I can protect myself.
Esther Racah
