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  • The Paroxysm Of My Anxieties

    The Paroxysm Of My Anxieties

    The Paroxysm Of My Anxieties

    The Paroxysm of my anxieties
    Whenever I force myself to forget and forgive
    Like an explosion inside my head
    Memories hurt me profoundly and harshly
    Leaving me astonished
    Trying to survive
    In such a society
    I was guilty, and I am guilty to be pretty
    I was responsible, and I am responsible for being a woman
    My body and my personality had always been the issues
    Since I was provoking and I provoke too much
    So many times, I had the shame of myself
    So many times, I had to hide inside hideous and baggy clothes
    Panicking and freezing
    I wish I were born a glowing star
    So unreachable and untouchable
    In the infinity and sublimity of the universe.
    Esther Racah

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