The Paroxysm Of My Anxieties

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The Paroxysm Of My Anxieties

The Paroxysm Of My Anxieties

The Paroxysm of my anxieties
Whenever I force myself to forget and forgive
Like an explosion inside my head
Memories hurt me profoundly and harshly
Leaving me astonished
Trying to survive
In such a society
I was guilty, and I am guilty to be pretty
I was responsible, and I am responsible for being a woman
My body and my personality had always been the issues
Since I was provoking and I provoke too much
So many times, I had the shame of myself
So many times, I had to hide inside hideous and baggy clothes
Panicking and freezing
I wish I were born a glowing star
So unreachable and untouchable
In the infinity and sublimity of the universe.
Esther Racah

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I am a literary blogger, a writer, a poet and a physicist. I have a PhD in Physics and am a former researcher in Astroparticle Physics. I am fluent in 5 languages: Italian, English, French, Spanish and Hebrew. Previously, I had studied Ancient Greek and Latin. Books, literature, poetry, and art are some of my passions.
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