In The Chasm Of Anguishes
In the chasm of anguishes
My soul wanders in a desolate immensity
Faraway, I can hear the echo of a storm
A violent tempest obscures all the realm
In silence, I wait immobile
My memories seize me and entrap me
Now anguishes and grief welcome me
And I lose control of my discernment
Never I will reacquire my old self again
I became a new person
Although I am a turmoil of emotions
Being a soul wandering in a noplace
I consider each moment of life as a small step
A minor step to advance in the knowledge of the material world
I have to abandon my utopistic world made of absurd dreams
I feel the fears like a frozen wall made of steel
In the torpour, I try to find a reasonable sense of this life
All those pains and anguishes build a chasm
A chasm swallowing every hope and ambition of mine
The coldness and the darkness of this material reality are overwhelming
Now I only feel disquiet, and I will never feel safe.
Esther Racah
