Deceptions
With time my dreams became deceptions
With time my hopes became deceptions
A bright hallucination became a dark image of delusions
Hopes fell like raindrops
Creating a lake of despair and self-deception
Being dreams the illusions we live in
To overcome a spoiled reality
Which is much too corrupted
The clouds in my minds protect me and make me feel free
I can fly away and pretend not to be myself anymore
All the pains, the grudges, the disillusion, the deceptions disappear
I become invisible
I become infinite
And I’m one of the trillions of stars in the universe
Where no envy, no violence, no hatred, no discrimination are allowed to exist
I want to forget and be merry
I want to celebrate life and be cheery
As my past sank into the abyss of the oblivion
Dark is the night without dreams
Dreams are my candles when I walk in the dark forest of the desolate fears
I want to empty my mind and shake away all the obscene memories
And the cold rain would wash away all the past crimson shames
My shadow is the only material remnant of myself
I’m made of passions and poetry
And my love is sealed into my words which I scatter in my verses
Nothing matters but the brightness of my soul
Once it is free from the yoke of the pain addiction
Deceptions are in my mind and my body
They left their imprints all over my skin.
Esther Racah
