Esther Racah Writer & Literary Blogger

Tag: amnesia

  • Haunting Dreams

    Haunting Dreams

    Haunting dreams devoured my mind during my tormented nights
    When the wind didn’t pass through my hair
    And the only sound I could hear was the whisper of the black roses entwined with my hair
    My gaze was staring at the moonless night sky
    Hoping for some star to appear before me
    But I was alone while wandering in the dark forest of my nightmares
    Where no creature or spirit emerged in the thick mist of darkness

    As soon as the moon arose from behind dark clouds
    Its pale glimmer stroked my face like petals of roses
    I felt the shadows surround me while dancing like phantoms
    They touched my gown with their icy claws
    The tragedy of my existence manifested into a dark fantasy
    Decadence became my castle of gloomy phantasmagoria
    Desolation became my alcove where I felt dearly cherished

    I fell in love with my hallucinations
    Trembling with lust and desire despite their gloomy embrace
    Every trace of wisdom had parted from me
    I had drunk from the goblet of insanity and amnesia
    I was finally a creature of the realm of haunting dreams
    Protected in my eternal slumber, I felt secure
    The infinity belonged to me and I was destined to never perish

    Whimsical was my mood and mutable like the wind in the springtime
    Fear didn’t belong to me anymore because I was a part of this macabre kingdom of chimaeras
    Not even my name dared to echo in that sacred silence
    I now dwelled as a requiem in the ravine of eternity
    I was cradled by gloominess and crowned by illusion
    I was no longer alive in my haunting dreams
    A bloom in oblivion and a ghost in the grave of forgotten stars
    Eclipsed by my own dark fantasies, I vanished into the hymn of endless dusk.
    Elisabetta

  • Glistening Amnesia

    Glistening Amnesia

    Glistening amnesia of the night
    A soul of a rainbow that is behind forgotten shadows
    A thousand roses chase the daylight
    A moment in seconds waiting for life
    The detachment of a dashed fate
    Love and sorrows of a lost soul
    A dream of woe and sadness
    The undisclosed eternity of the afterlife
    Unstable wisdom cluttered with prejudice and forgery
    Waiting for an empty choice deprived of consequences
    Ghosts of memories of never existed moments

    A glistening lost treasure
    Once just a memory of my thoughts
    Amidst a sleeping flock of clouds
    The sourness of the darkness vanishes
    Like a frail vision of bliss and hope
    The wind blowing off the leaves
    Everything had become quiet, and a secret
    Like a spell blooming into a mirage and a curse
    An infinite deception freezing in a glass cage
    A hidden dream of blissful illusions
    The scent of beauty in the darkness and coldness

    A glistening radiance in the pit of oblivion
    Shining with a melancholy glance
    Of a solemn reality of silver smiles
    The grief that shakes the breath of love upon the clouds of silence
    Rising with the flowers in bloom in the eternal earthy desire
    The ocean fills my dreams like a pure and magical sun
    The stars are burning, and the sunrise shines in the twilight
    The newness shows up for each rose in the garden of deception
    An endless reflection of expectations and delusions
    Seeking lost happiness in the ghastly emptiness
    A wildfire in the dark sand of my heart

    A glistening radiance on the evening sky
    Coming from a mild star with bright white rays
    A delight of rare and intense beauty remains concealed at the sight
    A tender memory of the old times becomes only a mirage
    A polychromatic sky upon the green dusk full of clouds of rain
    Bright morning wonders lingering in the mist
    The crystal whispers in a mysterious ancient garden
    The glowing splendour of the sun has made its way into the forest
    Where the trees gently glow pale in dreamy clouds with blazing green
    Meadows as bright as the bloom of their green buds
    Shining petals fall in the twilight like falling fire beneath the haze.
    Esther Elizabeth Racah

  • The Calmness Of Despair

    The Calmness Of Despair

    The calmness of despair filled the firmament
    Having despised vanity as a tempest broke
    The rain was blowing through the windy clouds
    I was not always used to loving dreams
    Once known as happiness lapses
    I went nowhere for one day
    Getting lost in my dreams
    Oftentimes falling into a snare of deceit
    Empty memories full of tears
    An irreverent game of illusions mangled to pieces trust
    Sadness stood at the doorway of the street
    Among the lies of people staring at it

    The calmness of despair was an intense sorrow between life and death
    The fear of terror and pain was caught in a mirror
    When the darkness obscured the emptiness
    A silent ecstasy appeared in my dreams
    A light gleam blew upon me like a hectic wind
    The storm seemed like a gentle breeze that fades
    Grief and pain desired to endure the cold deathless strife
    The fury and the howling of the sky dismantled every speck of serenity
    Indelebile and invisible amnesia of future mistakes
    A silent mystery of undisclosed obsessions hovered
    The dizziness of uncontrollable desires fell like frozen raindrops
    An obscure fate attempted to escape from fear

    In the calmness of despair’s gloom
    No thought would have been flung loose
    As every idealisation became a crystal inside my heart
    And it was impossible to hope and catch a glimpse behind the lids of unconsciousness
    None of my perceptions could lead me to deliverance
    Being constrained by misunderstanding and obstacles
    I had become a mere shadow of my imagination
    A creature of darkness and invisibility without mirrors
    An infinite dreamscape was soon forgotten in the opalescent darkness
    Every time the night shadows fell down in the desert sky
    Lost in my dreams to be never found
    Whispers and illusions met in a terrible embrace

    The calmness of despair in the abyss
    New emotions and thoughts had died too fast
    As long as time was past
    No oracle was allowed to guess
    I looked at the future all alone
    Before having discovered a labyrinth where I lost myself
    And where the pain had healed my wounds
    Completely awoken and sunken into a desire for absence
    The stillness of anguishes is a melody concealed in the ocean
    My dreams were composed of delights and pangs
    And everything was captivated by beauty and insanity
    Whenever a silent cry faded far away beyond all earthly things.
    Esther Elizabeth Racah

  • An Odyssey Into Folly

    An Odyssey Into Folly

    An Odyssey Into Folly

    An odyssey into folly amid the desert of wit and wisdom
    Where the strong blasts of numbness suddenly become hypothetical ideas
    An eternal journey into inanity with endless throwbacks to amnesia and regret
    When patience bursts into flames, emotions swirl in the dizziness of the senses
    Passivity and introspection stand in a motionless gush of hidden secrets
    An abstraction of solitons’ senses drowns into unconsciousness
    The overwhelming enclosure of dreams’ fatalities sinks into abhorrent brutality of shallowness
    A dim glow of a deceitful doozy hides an overshaded kingdom of folly and phlegm.
    Esther Elizabeth Racah

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