Esther Racah Writer & Literary Blogger

Tag: heart

  • Silence Says A Lot

    Silence Says A Lot

    Silence Says A Lot

    silence says a lot
    I saw what I was not supposed to see
    I heard what I was not supposed to hear
    and finally, I understood what I was not supposed to understand
    in the deception, my soul was going blind
    in the truth, I saw the misery
    is it so real a dream which is lasting all life long?
    or instead, is it factual, the empirical reality that lasts few instants?
    does time determine what is deceiving my heart?
    emotions melt away, misleading my sight.
    Esther Elizabeth Racah

  • My Song Of Despair

    My Song Of Despair

    My Song Of Despair

    my song of despair
    hopeless I wander in the labyrinth of the cold indifference
    I live in my utopian reality
    which is pretty different from the world out there
    I am such a fool dreaming all the time
    happiness faded away like a dead star
    disillusion shreds my heart into pieces
    not so much to do
    a cruel fate awaits me
    it is so difficult to be loved
    my soul cannot overcome despair and sorrow
    the blades of anguish pierce my heart
    and all that remains
    are the shattered pieces of my soul
    my shadow parted away
    leaving me in frozen loneliness.
    Esther Elizabeth Racah

  • I Surrender To My Senses

    I Surrender To My Senses

    I Surrender To My Senses

    I surrender to my senses
    as I wander nowhere
    even my shadow left me alone
    in my loneliness, I live
    in the world of illusions and dreams
    there is no place for rationality and logic
    everything is absurd
    everything is upside down
    no need to explain anything
    I don’t understand anything anymore in this life
    confuse and alone
    my heart doesn’t find peace
    my soul is in pain
    and I feel dizzy
    because in this absurd life
    to be loved is a rare gift
    weak and disoriented
    not anymore a bright star
    just a dark fragment of a faint star
    waiting for a sign from the firmament
    which is dark and cloudy.
    Esther Elizabeth Racah

  • Your Eyes

    Your Eyes

    It happens every single time with me, dear, when your eyes shine like millions of stars with no more fear
    when I looked at those fearless eyes for the first time intensely, your eyes pierced through my heart and were in deep conversation with my soul already
    yes, my dear beloved one, I felt love with your salty eyes
    when they told me stories that made my heart weep and made my heart fall for them intensely.

  • Infinity Stones: Global Pandemic

    Infinity Stones: Global Pandemic

    These fictional stones which don’t even exist,
    Had me wrap my head around what I call thought.
    A thought that went from what if to why not and then to god no.

    Yes, what if they existed for real, and why not?
    Time, Reality, Space, Power, Mind and Soul,
    We could have borrowed from their infinity to end this something that feels so endless.

    God, no…
    People are dying,
    Souls are crying.
    Even if my heart’s lying to me that everything is going to be just fine when my mind is worried to the core and shattered to death by the current reality of everything around me.

    Life’s never been so surreal when everything really is just turning into ashes in a snap of fingers.
    I’m scared, scared to death, and shook to my core.

    – Manish Rohan James

  • My Silent Love

    My Silent Love

    My Silent Love

    My silent love is shining like a star
    I love with all my heart
    Even though
    Sometimes the silence hides the tumultuous ardour of my love

    I love flowers
    Sometimes life is full of wonders
    My dreams keep me up all night
    I love to love

    It is in the darkness of the night that I dream
    As soon as the torment pierces my heart
    I lose control of my mind and my body

    I cannot stop myself
    My body is flooded with euphoria
    I am overwhelmed with bliss and ecstasy.
    Esther Elizabeth Racah

  • I Want To Embrace My Fears

    I Want To Embrace My Fears

    I Want To Embrace My Fears

    I want to embrace my fears
    Even though I end up crying for so many reasons
    I want to love the pains in my heart

    Sometimes I have the feeling that I am in a ballroom
    With thousands of mirrors covering the walls and ceilings
    Each mirror reflecting a different image of myself

    I have to break every chain of the past that holds me captive
    Every day I am reborn as a new creature who is essentially made of stars
    I wonder how much of myself am I willing to lose to please the conventions

    Every time I write
    I am always scared of overexposing myself
    And anxiety overcomes

    People think I am too weird, complicated and anticonventional
    Just because they don’t understand me
    They cannot see in me anything else than a tropical flower

    Sometimes I am subject to street harassment
    Which is a habit that will never pass as well as the rape culture
    Society normalises and supports sexual objectification and criticisms

    I am a descendent of the witches who weren’t burned.
    Esther Racah

  • My Heart Overflows With Love

    My Heart Overflows With Love

    My Heart Overflows With Love

    My heart overflows with love
    And my body is wholly subjugated to my crazy passions
    How many times do I have to die and be reborn with a new soul
    If there is hope, I might often have lost it
    The grief is a sweet melody that hypnotises my heart
    As I cease to dream, I slowly descend into the darkest abyss of despair and emptiness
    Where I find pleasure every time my soul is torn into pieces, and my heart perpetually agonises
    Sometimes I might be too intense
    Sometimes I might be too passionate
    Anguish and pain provoke spasms in my soul
    And each time, I feel overwhelmed and powerless
    Even in the dark night, my passions never cease to burn my heart
    Torments never desist from crashing my heart
    And emptiness is constantly swallowing me
    Until I fall lifeless on the shadow of myself.
    Esther Racah

  • The Struggle Is Part Of My Life

    The Struggle Is Part Of My Life

    The Struggle Is Part Of My Life

    The struggle is part of my life
    As well as my desire to love and be loved
    My poetry is the reflection of my soul
    I am too shy to exist
    And I might be obsessed with passionate love
    My feelings are always intense
    Like a deep crimson rose garden
    Flowers could be one of my obsessions
    My ardent desire pierces my soul
    Shattering it into pieces
    I would love to be a bright star in the obscurity of the night
    I would love to be a sublime orchid lost in a lush tropical garden
    I never stop to wonder about life
    Dreaming is the breathing of my soul
    I have infinite love inside my heart
    Passions overwhelm my mind
    Sighs and tears would return every night
    Lying awake in my bed and closing my eyes
    All kind of fantasies would seize my mind.
    Esther Racah

  • The Obscurity

    The Obscurity

    The Obscurity

    I will hide in the darkness
    The obscurity will be my sweet alcove
    Where my pains will be my delightful pleasures
    Love is burning inside of me passionately and devotedly
    It is an immortal flame that pierces my heart
    How many lives I will need to live to find my peace
    The darkness strokes me gently and slowly
    And it saves me from my insanity
    My heart aches, pounding foolishly
    In the euphoric desire to find true love
    A starry night is all I need at this moment.
    Esther Racah

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