Waiting for my dreams to wither like dry flowers
Constantly sinking into the oblivion of sadness and dizziness
Unaware of what could happen to my soul
Having lost every hope to save my dreams
Finding my sweet haven in my darkest grief
Slowly avoiding thinking and surrendering to the course of my vicious fate
I let the ocean waves swallow me into the chasms of unconsciousness
To avoid seeing the reflection of my memories in mirrors of shady dismay
The silence of the night lulled me to a deep slumber where I finally could feel peace and gaiety
My idle heart became a frozen stone full of sand and dust
Whilst I wandered in the desolate forest of my fears
Waiting for my dreams to be my only consolation
For I was aware of the evanescence of the stars gleaming in the night sky
Indeed, every single anguish of mine became a tiny leaf that the cold breeze lifted away from my gaze
So quickly was flowing my existence like a tumultuous river that I lost the sense of time
And I remained therefore languid in a garden without flowers or trees
A garden of darkness and shadows where no mortal could find me
My foremost hideaway in which I could flee the hideous threats from the world of reality
I didn’t pay attention to the consequences of my enchanted illusions
Dread and cynicism accompanied me at every step as unwelcome and unavoidable guests
Secrets were locked within me and only nonsense was guiding me in the eternal gloom of my seclusion
In vain I strove to reach out to the moonlight
Nevertheless, I had been cast away too far
Surrounded by nothing but loneliness and bleakness
I was left crying tears made of madness and turmoil.
Elisabetta Esther
Tag: journey
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Waiting For My Dreams
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A Doomed Fate
A doomed fate had long been sealed,
A cruel truth that time revealed.
Each step they took, each choice they made,
Led them deeper into the shade.The stars above, so cold, so bright,
Watched as they surrendered to the night.
In every breath, in every sigh,
They knew that soon they’d have to die.The night had deepened, thick with dread,
A silent pull towards the dead.
No whispers now, no gentle breeze,
Only shadows through the trees.A doomed fate had followed close,
Like shadows that refused to go.
They wandered through the years in vain,
Bound by chains, they could not break.They ran but found no place to hide,
For doom followed them, ever at their side.
The hour struck, the time was here,
And with it came a wave of fear.They faced their fate with weary eyes,
Knowing well, no one survives.
A breath, a step, a final cry,
As they laid down their will to die.A doomed fate had gripped their soul,
No freedom left to make them whole.
No matter how they fought or fled,
The path led closer to the dead.The end was hasty; the night grew cold,
The weight of fate was so tight, so bold.
And when at last the dawn did break,
It found a soul the night did take.And in the quiet, still and grey,
A doomed fate carried them away.
In the silence, fragments of despair
Spoke of dreams that hung in the air.A doomed fate had been fulfilled,
No fight remained, no heart to build.
Their life, now lost, became a tale,
Of shadows abyssal and winds that wail.Each moment stretched, a fragile thread,
Binding them to the path of dread.
And when the shadows whispered low,
They understood what they must forego.For fate, once chosen, could not bend,
A journey with no chance to mend.
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A Life Backwards
A life backwards,
Without sense and without hope,
All wrong,
All right.Inverted existence,
Senseless void,
Hopeless journey,
Chaotic order.Backward strides,
Lost in time,
Searching for meaning,
In the chaos of existence.Glimmers of purpose,
Amidst the madness,
Fragmented truths,
In the labyrinth of life.Shattered dreams,
Scattered fragments,
Lost whispers,
In the abyss of oblivion.Inverted tale,
Lost and found,
Backward steps,
In silent sound.Senseless void,
Where hope resides,
Chaos reigns,
In unseen tides.Lost in time,
Strides reverse,
Meaning sought,
In tangled verse.Amidst the storm,
Purpose gleams,
Truths obscured,
In shattered dreams.Scattered pieces,
Whispers fade,
In oblivion’s grip,
Memories cascade.A life forwards,
With sense and with hope,
All right,
All wrong.Conventional existence,
Meaningful void,
Hopeful journey,
Ordered chaos.Forward strides,
Found in time,
Creating meaning,
In the order of existence.Brightened dreams,
Connected fragments,
Found whispers,
In the heights of recognition.Conventional tale,
Found and lost,
Forward steps,
In resounding sound.Meaningful void,
Where hope resides,
Order reigns,
In seen tides.Found in time,
Strides forward,
Purpose sought,
In clear verse.Amidst the calm,
Purpose gleams,
Truths revealed,
In whole dreams.Connected pieces,
Whispers remain,
In recognition’s grasp,
Memories emerge.A life spinning,
With madness and despair,
All tangled,
All clear.Disjointed existence,
Void of reason,
Journey without end,
Chaos unchained.Twisted strides,
Lost in the void,
Hunting for meaning,
In the madness of chaos.Flickers of purpose,
Amidst the chaos,
Shattered truths,
In the maze of madness.Fractured dreams,
Scattered shards,
Echoes lost,
In the abyss of madness.Chaotic tale,
Found and forgotten,
Backward leaps,
In the cacophony of silence.Senseless void,
Where despair thrives,
Chaos devours,
In the invisible whirlpool.Lost in time’s grasp,
Strides backwards,
Seeking nonsense,
In twisted prose.Amidst the tempest,
Purpose fades,
Truths hidden,
In shattered illusions.Scattered fragments,
Whispers vanish,
In oblivion’s grip,
Memories dissolve.
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Paranormal Life
Paranormal life is taking place
Missives from past and future
A story behind good or evil
However fair could be this time
I do always move forward with a chance
Irrevocable thoughtless by day
I become made of things out of fantasy
For years in future, I would not be found
No matter how is senseless evermore to like what we believe
I would be better going together in love and hateParanormal life
Where I have no place
And the destruction of truth overcomes
Since I was alone for so long
And I couldn’t raise my notes
So I lie down in time inside a real world I’ve made up
Taking my time through a tough life
My mind remains still in a moment
which makes me feel sad
My thoughts are goneParanormal life
A life where I can be lost in a world with no roads
Day after day until tomorrow when the years will disappear
I am safe as a mystery
As the truth exists
It will lead to the future
Whilst I give up on what it’s happening,
The reality is based on a need for an eternal journey
My soul had overcome the darkness
Releasing freedom from each desireParanormal life
Every inch of my soul remains unknown
When I become honest with myself
Obliterating every trust in love
And from now, I am lost forever in my new dreams
Until a new dawn begin for my novel life
Coming back to an eternity of senses
In a long life with no shared hope
For each forgotten moment
All the last words are gone to the end of timeParanormal life was a dream of a tragedy
Where every fleeting fantasy has a hope to exist
But no soul remains untamed and intact
I left myself with a glimpse of imagination
The beauty of my passions and illusions
An eternal dream which is divine and belongs only to me
With time, everything is found in my mind
Being in a state of my own with no distress or anguish
Vanity and mysticism exhausted me
Living becomes no real, and the expectations sink into the dim ocean of nightmares.
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The Visions Of My Soul
The visions of my soul strike my mind
I never see to end of the motionless disheartenment
In silence, I wait for a prolonged rain to end
I know the world will not last forever
In hope, I live a dreamless life made of disillusions
Lies in the deepest darkness with no return at all
Where everything is dim and the night is quiet
The rising waves and the gloaming break me
Surprise and wonder echoes seem to be heard from afarThe visions of my soul fly like a rose
They are born to face the earth’s fate
I have learned how to dream
A new life is present
Every word is not a mystery
It is the only way to be
Unmindful and alone
I have never known of all the rituals I dreamt
No one should knowThe visions of my soul go back to the years and life’s past
A long journey is waiting now for me
A perfect existence to read
Though I still enjoy thinking about perspectives
I’m looking forward to each night with sadness
Perhaps it has been written without rhymes
I cannot always be concerned in ways far away too much longer to write
A very different way to be in art
I see words as they were assigned to me for the way I existThe visions of my soul have vanished in the sky
And as the birds cease singing in their nest
At twilight, my memories fade away
My heart is close to the firmament and yet so free
The dreams, the air, the sky, the sea, the trees and the earth help me to find myself
I glimpse the bright clouds and the leaves flying down
Whilst the stars gleam upon me
I become free from those old and deceitful longings.
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An Apathetic Wonder
An apathetic wonder at the sight of all the future catastrophes
A meaningful fear traps me and pulls me into the abyss of obscurity
Ghosts and spectres are my eager companions
Being in many places in one day
Travelling time quickly in a preternatural form
A glare of light and fire pretended to scare me
Everything was a dream of a vision
And suddenly, the present night appears
No more complaints when the world would outcastAn apathetic wonder like a golden morning candle
For another cold scent of winter
When the rain does not stop pouring on the streets
In the heat
And my blood is frozen like the winter snow
The beautiful colours of stars become flowers
All of a sudden
A mystery which never existed has been the truth on earth
Trying to forget distasteful memoriesAn apathetic wonder of the sky
Every time a desire becomes complex
Every moment of happiness and sorrow
It cannot happen again
An opportunity for the mind
Incurable wounds of the soul
Nothing but excellent astonishments
The water is everywhere, coming from the blue
Creating a vast ocean of tears and sighsAn apathetic wonder
Being busy living within my soul
Those ancient memories
From every place of my mind
Passing along with my own dreams
The sky is pure and dark
A lovely gloomy air
Where I cannot perceive any colour or sound
During an infinite journey in my subconsciousAn apathetic wonder in a light storm
Winged like nothing else
My words fly away
Toward a remote invisible place
Where every kind of bliss and pain was dwelling
Once the sun was gone
As a gilded sign of merriment
And red roses were made of silver and gold
My heart could not beat anymore in delight
Because my dreams were open doors.
Esther Elizabeth Racah



