Waiting for my dreams to wither like dry flowers
Constantly sinking into the oblivion of sadness and dizziness
Unaware of what could happen to my soul
Having lost every hope to save my dreams
Finding my sweet haven in my darkest grief
Slowly avoiding thinking and surrendering to the course of my vicious fate
I let the ocean waves swallow me into the chasms of unconsciousness
To avoid seeing the reflection of my memories in mirrors of shady dismay
The silence of the night lulled me to a deep slumber where I finally could feel peace and gaiety
My idle heart became a frozen stone full of sand and dust
Whilst I wandered in the desolate forest of my fears
Waiting for my dreams to be my only consolation
For I was aware of the evanescence of the stars gleaming in the night sky
Indeed, every single anguish of mine became a tiny leaf that the cold breeze lifted away from my gaze
So quickly was flowing my existence like a tumultuous river that I lost the sense of time
And I remained therefore languid in a garden without flowers or trees
A garden of darkness and shadows where no mortal could find me
My foremost hideaway in which I could flee the hideous threats from the world of reality
I didn’t pay attention to the consequences of my enchanted illusions
Dread and cynicism accompanied me at every step as unwelcome and unavoidable guests
Secrets were locked within me and only nonsense was guiding me in the eternal gloom of my seclusion
In vain I strove to reach out to the moonlight
Nevertheless, I had been cast away too far
Surrounded by nothing but loneliness and bleakness
I was left crying tears made of madness and turmoil.
Elisabetta Esther
Tag: ocean
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Waiting For My Dreams
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The Tides Of Death
The tides of death and despair devour me into their abyss. Intimidated, I let the cold ocean swallow me in its frightening chaos. Humiliation and surrender chained me to the ocean floor; under constraints, I couldn’t escape my doomed fate.
And I felt nothing, absolutely nothing. So much so that I was devoid of my essence and true self
In the midst of emptiness, I was the embodiment of decadence and death. Nothing anymore could have hurt me because I was definitely belonging to the realm of demise.The tides of death transformed me into a creature of the realm of destruction and nothingness. I was a spirit of the dark abysses and my words were made of absolute silence. Betrayed by my dreams, I realised that I had no hope of staying alive and accepting my end.
My heart had stopped beating and I was depleted like a withered rose. Nothing could have revived me and so much I strived to hold and cherish my desires, in the desperate endeavour to conquer my feeble spirit. The marine soil trembled under my faint body and opened into a dreadful gorge.
Terror was the only emotion filling my heart. The distress was so brutal that it tore me apart. All that remained to me was to sing a silent song of desolation and defeat while collapsing under the weight of sorrow. I was all alone in the chasm of darkness and death, and nothing could have saved me.
The tides of death possessed me and I couldn’t rebel against them. I was like a buried flower, dead before it was supposed to die. No tears rescued me from my deep despair. No slumber could have made me feel better. In that perpetual torpor, I was destined to remain for eternity and beyond.
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The Sirens’ Whispers
The sirens’ whispers echo in my mind
Whenever I am immersed in my absurd thoughts
All I wish for is to escape to my enchanted land of dreams
My heart is captivated by dreams and wonderI belong to a world of illusions and magic
Where I am free to wander through unknown realms
Chasing shadows and stardust in the endless night
In the labyrinth of darkness where there is no escapeThe melodies of weeping memories cast a spell over me
They bound me with chains made of sorrow and regret
I descend into the abyss of the ocean of nightmares
Being a captive in a dungeon of insanity and chimaerasBecoming an enchanting mermaid in this ocean of wonders
I wander through the vast chasm of a submerged realm
Where I can admire all kinds of creatures and oddities
Dancing with gloomy ghouls and shadows of ancient mysteriesThe impetuous current carries me to unknown worlds
And I float light and unconcerned
Swaying with the rhythm of invisible tides
Embracing the dangerous mystery of every silent waveUnaware of my future fate, I welcome the enigma
Dragging my aching heart wherever I go
Chained to this sunken realm, visible only to my sight
Lost under the influence of tumultuous tidesI surrender to the bewitching call of the abyss
Hovering between fragments of withered dreams
Carried by waves that sing forgotten legends
The sirens’ whispers lure me into eternal doom
Where I dwell forever, embraced by the midnight tide.
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The Ocean of Gloominess
The ocean of gloominess stretched before me and beyond any imagination, displaying all its magnificence and supremacy.
Fears and insecurities became ominous shadows that grew bigger, like intense storms dragging me deep into the abyss of oblivion.
Freezing was the wind that embraced me with its long, spiky arms like a sweet and sour betrayal that ripped my heart.
I would embrace non-existence rather than existence as a valley of distress and pain where I don’t find any place of joy and peace.
Not relying on trust anymore, searching desperately for the truth buried underneath, I laid down on the cold soil, waiting for my eternal slumber to drag me away.
Teardrops covered my face, freezing under the shapes of crystals and gems, now that nothing would have remained.
And so, I became a part of that frozen realm where all the trees and flowers were made of insensitive frost.
Not feeling anything anymore was my source of delight and amusement. I strived to forget all the memories as if I really never existed.
The ocean of gloominess enticed me with its mystery and illusions, its sovereignty and cruelty.
The nothingness lured me over and over again till I fell into the snare of the void where I coveted to finish like an ethereal dream of mine.
Hence, I fainted again in a deadly slumber, a permanent one from which I couldn’t wake anymore, becoming just a frail, glimmering snowflake.
Fleeting moments became remembrances to be obliterated like sand devoured by the wind. And dread overcame every little sparkle of mirth, leaving me adrift in the eternity of despair.
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The Eternal Night
The eternal night within myself was sombre and mysterious,
Like an obscure, vast, nocturnal ocean welcoming the starless night sky,
A dark sky diving down into the sea depths.Obsessive was the wind hissing ominously against me,
And in the same time, pushing me inside that frightening water realm,
Where I was very driven to jump and disappear forever.Alone and lonely, I remained on the brink of the precipice,
From where I heard a captivating spell of death and delight,
Forgetting about every endeavour to endure a ruthless existence.I became the night, and the darkness pierced me like a sharp, poisoned arrow,
Ready to be destroyed like a fragile crystal flower,
With the awareness that I would become a part of the infinite void.And an absolute silence lit the memories within myself,
Condemning me to relive my past,
A realm I’ve always sought to escape.The void opened its maw, revealing itself a chasm of legends and glooms,
Summoning me with its enchanting spell, recalling all I had lost,
A dirge was sung by several faceless mirrors of sorrow and despair.Each remembrance burned like a fading flame,
Illuminating instants that I dared not revisit,
Although they lived like unbidden guests inside the darkness of my soul.I strived to stay away from that endless obscurity,
Trembling as soon as its cold grasp reached and touched me,
Provoking disturbing sensations and visions within me as fragments of life shattered into countless pieces.The waves below surged like spectral wraiths,
Touching, pulling, claiming me as their own belonging,
Promising delight and mirth in the depths of nothingness.I lingered suspended in that ethereal dwelling between life and death,
Between the yearning to vanish,
And the curse of perpetual souvenirs.
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Unusual Loneliness
Unusual loneliness, like a trap of despair,
In the silent hollow profundities of melancholy,
Like waiting for nothing.Solitude was a tree in a landscape in black and white,
Where no bird was seen flying in a cloudy sky,
With no sun, no stars.Gardens of withered flowers, suddenly dead,
We were cloaked by a cold darkness,
While the wind silently touched every dead leaf.Obsessions and sweet anguishes were the only companions of dreamers,
Daring to challenge the infinite abyss of darkness,
In the absence of any comfort and solace.The ocean mirrored a void that swallowed the horizon,
Its waves whispered secrets to no one—
Each crest fell into oblivion,
A rhythmic pulse, echoing an empty heart.Unusual loneliness became a captivating spell,
In front of the infinite ocean, unifying with a cloudless sky,
Neither sunrise nor sunset are allowed to rule.Indeed, in the chasm of this desolation,
There was no cry, no scream to break the spell,
Only the slow, measured breathing of a realm too tired to weep.Beneath the surface, creatures swam in circles,
Trapped like thoughts repeating,
Chasing themselves endlessly.Until the silence became unbearable,
Shadows whispered in the void,
And even the depths withheld their embrace.Solitude was a tree in a landscape in black and white,
Where no bird was seen flying in a cloudy sky,
With no sun, no stars.Unusual loneliness, like a trap of despair,
In the silent hollow profundities of melancholy,
Like waiting for nothing.Gardens of withered flowers, suddenly dead,
We were cloaked by a cold darkness,
While the wind silently touched every dead leaf.Obsessions and sweet anguishes were the only companions of dreamers,
Daring to challenge the infinite abyss of darkness,
In the absence of any comfort and solace.The ocean mirrored a void that swallowed the horizon,
Its waves whispered secrets to no one—
Each crest fell into oblivion.In the chasm of this desolation, there was no cry,
No scream to break the spell could be heard,
Only the slow, measured signing of a realm too tired to weep.Unusual loneliness was a strong ruler,
No fool, no wise could escape its lure,
In a kingdom of silence, vast and infinite.Beneath the surface of the sea, creatures swam in circles,
Trapped like thoughts repeating,
Chasing themselves endlessly.Until the silence became unbearable,
And even the depths withheld their embrace,
Since the darkness was too vast for escape.The mountains, once mighty and towering, now seemed worn and hollow,
Their peaks were erased by time,
As if they, too, were succumbing to despair.Each stone whispered tales of forgotten triumphs,
Now, only memories lost to the winds of neglect,
Fading into the silence.Unusual loneliness crept like a mist,
Cold branches wrapping in a deadly twist,
A silent grip no soul could resist.The sky, stretching endlessly, refused to colour the world beneath it.
It held no promises, no passions,
Just a blanket of monotonous grey.Even the rain, if it dared to fall, would weep in silence.
There was no place untouched by the chill of loneliness—
A world where sorrow reigned supreme.Every corner, every shadow, echoed the same quiet devastation,
A symphony composed not of music but of absence,
Playing to an empty audience.Even time itself seemed to crawl, hesitating with each tick,
As though unsure if it should even continue,
Caught in its own web of doubts.Unusual loneliness haunted the world,
A wind of shadows, a formless snare,
Dragging the mortals into its lair.Anonymous laments echoed in the distance—faint, deliberate,
A wanderer perhaps, someone who dared to explore this barren world,
Searching for something, anything.But there was no one else.
No soul, no companion, no warmth,
Only the endless cycle of overthinking and the ache of isolation.The mind wandered into mazes of memory,
But even there, the colours had faded,
And the voices of the past had grown faint.A lone figure stood by the shore, gazing into the nothingness of the sea.
Their reflection, distorted by the gentle ripples of the water,
Seemed more real than the person.Unusual loneliness wore the moon’s facade,
A ghostly mask in an empty space,
Draining light, leaving no trace.And in this moment, time itself became irrelevant.
There was no before, no after, only this singular, agonising now,
An eternal present where nothing changed.Where the world, once teeming with life, had become a still frame,
Frozen in the throes of despair,
A realm untouched by the hands of time.The atmosphere became oppressive, clinging to everything like a second skin,
Stifling even the thought of escape,
The dreams laboured to survive in such a world.Each sigh was a reminder of the poundage of existence,
And, in the midst of all this, there was always something strangely awkward—
Perhaps it was the predictability of the emptiness.Unusual loneliness penetrated the stones,
A shout that hummed when everyone was alone,
Weaving despair in every bone.The knowledge that nothing would bewilder the silence,
No sudden joy, no sharp pain—just the steady hum of nothing,
A bleak kind of peace.And maybe that was the true curse of this unusual loneliness,
The temptation to surrender to it fully,
To embrace the void as one’s own.To forget the world beyond,
For what was the use in resisting when the darkness seemed so welcoming?
The quiet called out, beckoning for surrender.
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The Castle By The Ocean
The castle by the ocean stood on a cliff ruled by shadows at night,
An ancient, towering fortress, fierce and fantastic, haunted and forlorn.
It rose from the rock, a sentinel of stone and memory,
Bearing witness to countless storms, its walls were stroked by time and tide.Waves mild and intense disclosed secrets long heretofore,
Stories of love and death, of struggles fought and lives surrendered.
In the moon’s pale, ghostly glares, spectres roamed the halls at dusk,
Their steps echoed through the aisles, a mournful melody.Turrets pierced through the mist, emerged scornful against the sky,
Their silhouettes were a stark contrast to the swirling fog below.
Windows, once alive with lamps, now gazed upon the sea,
Stares of sorrow, dark and unbound, reflected the endless expanse.The castle’s gates, long rusted shut, held tales of ancient treasures,
Of kings and queens, of fearless knights, their legends carved in gravel.
The castle by the ocean with walls carved by time and storms kept secret stories from days sunk in oblivion,
Each pebble bore the weight of a history’s silent song.Mirrors of the past stuck around inside every tormented chamber,
In each stone, a hidden misery and a remembrance were entombed.
The ballroom, now empty, once rang with giggle and mirth,
Feasts and proms, melodies raised, celebrating life and inception.The castle by the ocean sobbed, a lament to the sky,
Where restless spirits never perished, bound to this earthly realm.
They wandered through the twilight, shades of what once was,
Guardians of forgotten lore lost in time’s relentless haze.The library, with dusty tomes, held knowledge long since known,
Books of wisdom, spells, and dreams, their pages now unattended.
Cobwebs draped the chandeliers, their crystals dull and silver,
Once sparkling at the candlelight, now dimmed by centuries’ decay.The courtyard, overgrown with wild shrubs, where flowers used to bloom,
Now lay as silent witness to nature’s quiet doom.
However, the castle by the ocean stood firm, defiant against time,
A relic of a bygone era, preserved in sorrow’s tears.The castle by the ocean became a monument to the past,
An ancient, towering fortress, severe and feral, tormented and desolate.
Its heritage, etched in stone and sea, whispered on the wind,
A tale of unyielding resolve, where ghouls endlessly persisted.
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The Calmness Of Despair
The calmness of despair filled the firmament
Having despised vanity as a tempest broke
The rain was blowing through the windy clouds
I was not always used to loving dreams
Once known as happiness lapses
I went nowhere for one day
Getting lost in my dreams
Oftentimes falling into a snare of deceit
Empty memories full of tears
An irreverent game of illusions mangled to pieces trust
Sadness stood at the doorway of the street
Among the lies of people staring at itThe calmness of despair was an intense sorrow between life and death
The fear of terror and pain was caught in a mirror
When the darkness obscured the emptiness
A silent ecstasy appeared in my dreams
A light gleam blew upon me like a hectic wind
The storm seemed like a gentle breeze that fades
Grief and pain desired to endure the cold deathless strife
The fury and the howling of the sky dismantled every speck of serenity
Indelebile and invisible amnesia of future mistakes
A silent mystery of undisclosed obsessions hovered
The dizziness of uncontrollable desires fell like frozen raindrops
An obscure fate attempted to escape from fearIn the calmness of despair’s gloom
No thought would have been flung loose
As every idealisation became a crystal inside my heart
And it was impossible to hope and catch a glimpse behind the lids of unconsciousness
None of my perceptions could lead me to deliverance
Being constrained by misunderstanding and obstacles
I had become a mere shadow of my imagination
A creature of darkness and invisibility without mirrors
An infinite dreamscape was soon forgotten in the opalescent darkness
Every time the night shadows fell down in the desert sky
Lost in my dreams to be never found
Whispers and illusions met in a terrible embraceThe calmness of despair in the abyss
New emotions and thoughts had died too fast
As long as time was past
No oracle was allowed to guess
I looked at the future all alone
Before having discovered a labyrinth where I lost myself
And where the pain had healed my wounds
Completely awoken and sunken into a desire for absence
The stillness of anguishes is a melody concealed in the ocean
My dreams were composed of delights and pangs
And everything was captivated by beauty and insanity
Whenever a silent cry faded far away beyond all earthly things.
Esther Elizabeth Racah

